SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 20, 2009

I regret coming back here to you. You said you changed. I believed you, and you were right. Unfortunately, you changed for the worse. I'm fixing my mistake. I'm leaving you in January and going where you can't find me.

I regret not telling Joseph how I feel. I know we can never be together, but I'm sorry. You needed to know the truth. I'll tell you the next time I see you, one way or the other.

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SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 19, 2009

I regret living a life in which I have very few regrets. I play it safe. I am afraid I have missed out on a lot.

F24

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 18, 2009

I regret that I didn't hit you harder. After all the emotional pain you caused, you deserved to feel a little of it too.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 17, 2009

I regret not telling you the truth every time we are on the phone. You make me miserable and I will never be with you again. I have been so much happier and healthier now that you are gone, but still I insist on talking to you every night. I am moving on in every other aspect. That guy you are so afraid I'll eventually sleep with? He has already happened. And will happen again in just a few days. I regret telling you I was just out with a friend. Every time we get off the phone I regret that I didn't just end it with you. I regret still worrying about your feelings more than my own. I regret not hurting you even a little bit after the way you hurt me. Most of all, I preemptively regret all the hurt I am going to cause you when this all comes tumbling down around us.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 16, 2009

I regret letting you go. I love you so much, its all I ever think about. I love everything about you. I regret driving by your house, because every time I do I see her car in your driveway, and I die inside. I miss you so much, Michael. I love you with all of my heart, mind, and soul. And I always will.

f/20

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 15, 2009

I wish I always knew how amazing I was.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 14, 2009

I regret fighting with my mother and actually hitting her and giving her bruises. I regret for every snide remarks that I impulsively say because I have anger issues. I regret saying that I hated her when inside I died a little when those words came out. I regret having to punish myself instead of her punishing me. I regret breaking promises to her.I regret making her cry on Mother's Day, Christmas and on her birthday.I regret telling her she was a bad mother when inside I truly know that she will never be. I regret never saying I loved her and feeling embarassed of her in front of my friends.

I love my mother so much and I wish she wouldn't have to put up with my shit all the time because I know I give her hell.
I regret letting her almost have a heart attack and I regret that she got that attack because of me.
I regret that she now suffers a chance of dying to a heart attack because of the stress I put her through..
I love you mom..I wish I was a better daughter to you
F/18/CA

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 13, 2009

I regret not saying I love you before I left for school that morning.

I regret not coming home from school when we had early release.

I regret not being there when you needed me most.

I regret you not texting me asking for me to help you.

I regret not being able to drive you to the hospital.

I will always regret not being there for you during your last moments.

I regret not doing anything when you said you felt sick.

I miss you and love you so much daddy. I hope heaven is great.

Female, 16

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 12, 2009

I regret that I met you when I was too young to understand what you meant to me. I regret that I was too young to deal with my emotions appropriately. I regret that I never kissed you in my dorm room, even when we both wanted it. I regret that I was still so uncomfortable loving myself as a gay man that I couldn't let you love me.

Most of all, I regret that these regrets have made you view me as a psychopath.

24/m

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 11, 2009

I regret telling you that I wasn't in love with you anymore. Mainly because you believed me and left the children and I...but also because it isn't true. I knew that you were unhappy, so I lied to you partly hoping that you would fight to get my love back...Instead you left and have moved on. I hope you are as happy as you say...that's all I want for you. And secretly some day I hope you regret leaving

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 10, 2009

I regret that I listened to you when you said marrying him was "the right thing to do."

You were wrong. The right thing to do would have been to give "us" a shot.

Now I'm married, and still in love with you. Sadly, you realized too late you loved me too. And now, we're both too scared to admit our mistakes.

F/33

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SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 9, 2009

I regret not saving you when my father beat you. Burned you. Smacked you. Kicked you.
I regret running and not bringing you with me.
I regret not coming back for you.
I regret getting another dog.
I regret not being there when he killed you.

F 17

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 8, 2009

i regret that i ever started cutting myself. 2 years, 1 hospital visit, and 6 months of therapy later and it is still all that i think about.

f/17

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 7, 2009

I regret being lazy, and sending you to the store with our daughter to get some ice cream. I regret that I didn't believe the police officer who came to our door 2 hours later to tell me about the accident.
I regret that I no longer get to reach out for you at night, or to argue about who is going to check on Lily at 3 in the morning.
I regret that your lives were cut so short, and that I am now stuck here, alone, and hurting.

I miss you both so, so much. I regret not knowing how to move past this.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 6, 2009

I regret you ever having found that awful poem written about you.
I regret having been the one to write it in the first place.
I thought i was just expressing myself, though I wonder if it was just a cry for attention.
we were never the same after that.
But I love you mom.
I regret how it has effected your trust in me.
How you feel so insecure now.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 5, 2009

I regret wanting you so badly. I regret letting my love for you consume what we had and what I was about. But mostly, I regret telling you what I felt every step of the way.. because I felt that, if I didn't, I'd lose you. And now I've lost you to her. I knew you'd eventually find someone else, and I knew it would hurt. It does sting, but I'm truly glad that you're happy. My only regret about your happiness... is that it's not with me.

I'm going to move on. And I'm going to get over you. But it's going to take a lot of time and love from someone else to make you disappear. And, honestly? I wish that I'd never met you. because you're perfect for me, and I'm better off with you.
The worst part is.. I hope you see my face when you're with her, taste my lips when you kiss her, hear my heart and smell my perfume when you lay with her, and feel my warmth when you hold her.
I'm bitter. But you'll be erased from my mind someday. And someday can't come soon enough.

You'll regret that you lost me.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 4, 2009

I regret not knowing myself before my 13 year marriage.

Knowing that I'm a sex addict having to fight that everyday most often losing to it.

I dont want this and when I found theres no cure made it worse. I try so hard...

(Before you judge you dont know what I go through everday.)

32 Male

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 3, 2009

I regret every day not loving you as much as you love me. I stay with you for the security, and I adore you- but I've loved harder and fuller. I regret not trying harder every day to be the person you think I am.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 2, 2009

Dad,
I regret the way I made you feel when I was younger. The things I said to you, the tantrums I threw.

I was young and stupid, and couldn't handle the things she was telling me. She was in the wrong, not you. A 12 year old shouldn't hear the things she told me. You never acted the way she did and tried to manipulate my feelings towards her. She pulled it day in and day out.

I regret believing her.

I regret that I didn't just ask you about it.

I regret that you think the reason why I'm so messed up is because of you. You are my rock. You always have been, and always will be, there for me. I need you, and I need you to know how sorry I am.

I regret that I can't say these things to you. I know you would forgive me, but I'll never forgive myself.

Out of all of my regrets, the one I wish I could take back the most is making you feel like a bad father.

Dad, I love you more than words can express.

I hope you forgive me, though I could never handle hearing those words.

F/20

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 1, 2009

I regret not figuring it out earlier. For years I only thought about the negatives of life. I only thought about why my life was bad when really life is amazing.

There are so many beauties to life and people and just everything. Now that I've sat back and really looked at things I wish I had seen what I know now sooner.

I love life, and every aspect of it. Good and bad. I regret ever wallowing in pain when I could have been partying or laughing or enjoying all the little things.

Never let sadness or pain cloud your perspective. Live.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 31, 2009

I regret not being able to prove that I don't need sex. You're only deployed for 6 months and I could only last for 4 of them. Mostly it's made me realize, I regret marrying someone that, when I cheat, makes me realize I simply don't care enough about us to not give in to my urges. I'm sorry you love me because I think I married you just to prove that I didn't

a) have to be pregnant like my parents and grandparents were and

b) that I can make it work...

I love you, I do. I'm just not sure how f'd up my idea of love is. I regret not making that clear before we got married.

-19/f

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 30, 2009

I regret not kicking you when you were down, but instead helping you back up.

Not only should I have kicked you, but beat you unconscious and left you for the wolves like you did me.

F/25

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 29, 2009

I regret saying I didn't like the ring and I didn't like the way you proposed. It was shallow and stupid of me. I know you did the best you could for me and I was still ungrateful and I've always felt horrible for it. Because now, I wish for nothing more than you to put a ring on my finger and call me your fiance again.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 28, 2009

I'm a 50 year old man. I regret that I've never had the courage to cheat on my passionless marriage. Though I've fathered 7 children, I've never had sex with hunger; I've never torn at a woman's clothes with urgency and desire; I've never examined a woman's body and reveled in the beauty, the softness; I've never felt a woman shiver with delight in my arms; I've never left the light on. I have never known how it feels to be desired. I regret that I've been a faithful husband for 30 years to a woman who doesn't know that I'm a man.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 27, 2009

I regret that you have to leave me.

I have walked thru hell in my few years on this planet and on the other side of divorce and betrayal and cancer and radiation and 50lb weight loss and hair loss and not even feeling like a woman anymore I found you.

You came with your own set of obstacles but after all I had been thru it seemed like a cake walk. I know what people around us say. Like any interracial couple our own people look at us like traitors and we are stereotyped by everyone else. It's the hardest thing I have ever done at times, but I love you so, so much.

You made me laugh when I was sad, you were at every surgery, biopsy, test, all the things that shake me to the core you were beside me and you never had to be. When I was too sick to eat and losing too much weight you were there to convince me to take 2 more bites. I guess what I am trying to say is that I have come to depend on you.

I regret that because you got in a car accident (which can happen to anyone any day so count your blessings) when you were 18 (over a decade ago) that you are now a felon.

I regret that even tho I am a single mother and completely alone in this world I could not get help with my medical bills. I never wanted any sort of public assistance just a medical card and I made about 40 dollars a month too much. Now I am stuck with around 300,000 dollars in medical bills and have no credit.

I regret that after 6 months of begging landlords and apartment complexes that no one would rent to a black felon and a white girl with that much debt.

Things are not always what they seem.

I regret that I am losing my true love, and the only person I have had on my side thru out all of this.

Happy 1st anniversary Big Daddy, I regret that come tomorrow you will be on a Train to Illinois with my heart and I will never see you again.

24/f

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 26, 2009

I regret letting you (dad) and my brother belittle me to the point of feeling I have no self worth. And driving me to almost killing myself. I regret not having enough strength to fight back and telling you I am here and a great person. I regret not speaking up when my brother beat me and hurt me.I regret letting this run my life for 25 years and not allowing me to find all the happiness I deserve I regret dad not being the man you thought I should be , because I choose to be educated and not a construction worker like you and my brother . I had other goals for myself and i have filled them all with out your love and respect.I regret not telling mom before she died how you treated me and made me feel...she always knew but never understood as I choose to keep quiet out of fear.. I regret not explaining to my love, my wife, why I was so distant at time when i should have spoke my mind.. she deserved more then silence. I regret my family could not see how wonderful I am and how great my wife and kids are as here too I kept silent. I regret not seeking help to handle my pain so i could release my anger and move on. Last of all I regret losing mom before she could see me happy.

45/male

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 25, 2009

I regret that I have ABSOLUTELY NO confidence in my body.

You are a 24 year old male who wants his girlfriend to prance around in a bikini and I regret that I'm a 21 year old girl who can't do that. Swimming is one of your favorite pastimes and I regret having to go on about how much I HATE swimming, just so I don't have to say I really won't go because I am too embarrassed. I regret that ALL of your friends and their friends have swimming parties and river trips that I can't go to because I would feel like a whale around all those thinner girls. I regret that you honestly believe I would look just as good, but you only think that because I try to hide myself and we only have sex in the dark.

I regret that I'm supposed to be in the prime of my life, but I can't even wear a pair of shorts and I won't wear a skirt or dress without tights underneath. Not just for you, but for me as well.

I regret that I can't just make the best of what I have. I regret with every ounce of my being that I want so much to look like those girls on lookbook or all over television and the media... because it's physically impossible.

I regret that I think mirrors lie to me, when I do appear to look good.

I wish I could be free of this body.

21/f

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 24, 2009

I regret not being a better daughter. I am so selfish sometimes and you always end up being my verbal punching bag. You take it everytime with such elegance because you love me so much. I know. I know that I am your life and even when I treat you in ways that a daughter should never treat her mother, you put up with me because for you, love is unconditional. Love is unconditional for me too, and I know that no one in this world will ever love me like you do. I will be better. I will be better

F/19

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 23, 2009

I regret when you came to me the night before your wedding, crying and telling me that it should have been me. I regret telling you that you should go ahead and marry her, because she's having your baby.

If I could take it back now, I would.

Because after 12 years, you're still the only person I want to be with.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 22, 2009

I regret letting you walk all over me for four years of my life. You were supposed to be my best friend but now I realize you were barely a friend at all. You made me feel like crap about myself by showing off all your new clothes and pretending like you hated the attention guys gave you. You are gorgeous and always have been and we both know it but you pretended like you were insecure so I would reassure you that you were indeed beautiful without ever boosting my confidence in return. You have no idea how much you hurt me by choosing him over me. I regret being hurt by you when you left the country numerous time to see him but wouldn't drive 20 mins to see me. I regret staying up all night countless nights trying to console you when I was on my own with my problems. I regret letting you get to me. I forgot who I was because i was always trying to compete with you. I regret letting everything become a competition, how many friends we had, or how cool our clothes were, how cute the boys we dated were or who got their license first, all of these things were competitions with you and i regret allowing myself to fall into them. I regret not opening my eyes to see who you really are and walking away because I lost a lot of myself in the process. I don't regret giving up on our friendship after you ditched me consistently for over a year but I do regret allowing myself to get excited to see you time and time again when I knew deep down you were only going to hurt me. I regret that you are in 99% of my pictures from high school, but at least I can use them as reference for what not to look for in a friend. I regret that it had to come to this, I wish I hadn't wasted my time trying to please you, I should have been trying to please myself.

I'm not going to have any more regrets when it comes to you, I'm far happier now, I'm confident in myself and I don't need you bringing me back down.

19/f

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 21, 2009

I regret that I don't know any of you, and I keep feeling tears prickle when I read your confessions. I want to help, but I know that I probably wouldn't be able to. I've never been so affected by the words of a stranger.

With all my heart, I regret your pain.

I regret that I don't have the chance to love you, because no one needs it more than you and I.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 20, 2009

i regret staying in the car while my favorite cat was put down.
i know he was in pain.
i know he must have been so scared.
he was the only friend i had for so long. the bond between people and their pets is amazing.
i regret not being strong enough.
:(

F/17

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 19, 2009

my biggest regret? it's not even difficult for me to think of one. it's been eating at me for months now and it kills me everytime it comes to mind. i completely regret fighting with my mom in january. telling her she was worthless, and that i hated her. i regret not calling or writing to her on her birthday in march. or answering my phone when she called on my birthday in april. eleven days later she committed suicide and i ask myself every day whether i could have been the deciding factor in that choice she made. if only i could go back and tell her that i love her. i miss you mummah. with all my heart. and it kills me to know that you're gone.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 18, 2009

I regret choosing him, because he looked good on paper, when I was so, so in Love with you.

You and I were best friends that happened to fall in Love. When you would touch me, it sent chills down my spine. I never felt that with him.

It's been three years, and you still are not going out with anyone, but I married the guy that looked good on paper -- the guy who cheated on me, lied to me, and is now divorcing me.

I regret that right now, I could be in your arms and in your Love, but am not because I chose a different path.

I regret that I could not stop Loving you, and that you still haunt me every day.

If only... if only you would still Love me after what I did... if only you could forgive me...


F/24

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 17, 2009

I regret using shopping as a way of dealing with my unhappiness in the past. Now I'm truly happy in my life situation, but my past mistakes are still being paid for, literally. I regret that I will still be paying for my past unhappiness for many years to come and that I feel like I'm completely drowning in debt.
33/F

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 16, 2009

I regret the small minded people i'm faced with every day at work. I regret that I let there bitchy,two faced rants behind closed doors to constantly boil up inside me but never get out. I regret that she will always think she's getting away with it,she'll always think that she's playing the game,on everybody's side when really everyone feels sorry for her.

I regret that my last day is a long time from now. But trust me,when it is, I will tell every single idiot how I really feel-destroy their image of me being sweet, nice and reliable.

I'll be sure to shock them all!

F/in unhappy job/20

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 15, 2009

I regret not being true to myself a long time ago.

I regret not coming out and proclaiming who I am. I am a lesbian. I let a few people in and told them that I was bisexual over the last 8 years, but not many. I was afraid and so I kept dating men and kept getting into relationships with men who would abuse me and cheat on me, and treat me like a doormat. It took me meeting her, and finding what true love is, to realize that I am strong enough to be myself

I came out to my family and all of my friends, with minimal fallout. It's nice to know that I was loved unconditionally. I just regret not letting everyone know who I was a long time ago. It would have saved me so much pain and suffering.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 14, 2009

I regret not being able to tell you that I don't want you in my life.

You are the "parent" you should be involved in my life, you should have been involoved in my childhood.

Instead of watching me grow up, you did the things that you wanted to do. You slipped farther into an addiction, rather than into fatherhood. You broke promise after promise to me, making me come home from your house crying to my mom. I regret that my mom had to tell me why you broke those promises.

I regret ever giving you that second, third, fourth and hundreds of other chances.

I regret still calling you my dad, when I have an amazing step-dad who would give me the world in a heartbeat.

I regret no telling you any of this. Enjoy your trip to hell.

f/19

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 13, 2009

I regret that I was the other woman. I opened up a Pandora's Box of pain for her and for me. I won him and then he proceeded to cheat on me. He even cheated on me with her, the woman I stole him from. He hurt me in so many ways, physically, mentally, emotionally. I stayed for so long. Break ups and getting back together, when I knew I should stay away. I kept doing this until I finally didn't. I finally met someone else who allowed me to be myself and who loves me.

The silver lining, in apologizing to her, the one I stole him from, we started to talk. We even became friends. We also both realized exactly how long you really did play us both.

I regret giving you that control over me. I regret letting you hurt me. I regret hurting another woman. I regret devaluing myself.

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SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 12, 2009

I regret not being there for you as much as I could have when your mom was dying.

I regret that the only way I could think to comfort you was to introduce you to cocaine.

I regret that I kept giving you cocaine.

I regret taking care of your brother while you were out doing god knows what and your dad was in the hospital.

I regret not really asking what was wrong.

I regret not getting you help.

I regret not telling your dad what a mess you were.

I regret that I didn't stay over on the first mother's day.

I regret that I left even though I knew something was wierd.

I regret not texting you to make sure that you fell asleep.

I regret that I woke up and went to work the next day without checking in with you.

I regret that I didn't answer the phone when your dad called.

I regret that I found out on Facebook that my best friend had killed herself.

I regret not going to your house to see your family.

I regret not going to your funeral to say good bye.

I regret that I still hate you for leaving me.

I regret that you are dead and I am not.

You had so much to give.

f/20

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 11, 2009

I regret never telling anyone about the molestation. I know I was a kid, a scared and confused kid, but telling someone, ANYONE, instead of just pretending it didn't happen, would have saved me a lot of heartache. Trying to heal 12 years after the fact is ridiculously difficult.

I regret all the time I've lost.

Female, 18

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 10, 2009

I regret not telling my boyfriend that i cheated on him while he was overseas fighting in the war. We are still together 2 years later and he still does not know. I regret that I am too selfish to tell him because I know it would end everything.

22/F

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 9, 2009

i regret so much in my life but mostly i regret being the child that could never please my mother. i regret not being pretty enough or skinny enough or smart enough i regret never being good enough to please you mom. i regret that yes i screwed my life up i regret feeling so alone that i had to hide my teen pregnancy from you. i regret the fact that now i only want to hear you say that im a good mother and all i get is how horrible i am ( even though you are about the only one to think so) and for some reason you are the only person i want approval from!!! I REGRET THAT YOU HATE ME FOR WHO I AM and i regret caring what you think ( and im a grown woman ) i regret feeling alone to this day

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 8, 2009

i regret being the over-achiever. i regret trying so hard to live up to your expectations of having a daughter go to a good college. i regret ever coming to this god forsaken place to begin with; maybe had i gone to a public college you'd see the difference in the work load and ease up on me-every one of my 3 learning disabilities take their toll on my grades and confidence. i regret trying and succeeding-only to fail in your eyes.

Mom, i regret not being what you wanted or expected; i regret not having the courage to disappoint you even more and just say "i wanna switch schools and come home, this place makes me miserable."

Most of all i regret the effects my unhappiness and your disappointment has caused to our relationship-i miss us being close and talking about everything. im sorry Mom, i miss you <3

F-19

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 7, 2009

I regret taking that bottle of pills last November.

I regret waking up in the hospital with them telling me that I needed to be sent to a special hospital.

I regret that long week. I hated that place. Those girls. Those doctors. Those groups. Those beds. Those showers.

After all of this, most of all, I regret telling my social worker that my dad was innocent and was not the cause.

He was.

17/F

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 6, 2009

I don't regret telling our parents you were doing drugs 5 years ago.. I don't regret making you feel bad about your coke habit, and have you look into Mom's eyes and see how scared she was. I don't regret it at all..
Because you stopped..
I had to do something, and you were incapable of listening.

Maybe I should have tried harder to reach out to you, but you don't even realize how far gone you were.

What I regret the most is knowing that you still occasionally do drugs. And now I don't have the courage to confront you and tell you how much of an idiot I think you are, still doing this.
"You've got it under control" - it's BS!
And you don't tell me about it - I hear it from friends.

I regret not being able to just beg you to stop. Do you not realize how scared I am for you? And how all this is affecting our younger brother - he's only 19 and you're his hero.
Please just stop being so irresponsible with your life, you are far too important to us!
I love you big brother!

F, 24

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 5, 2009

I regret that you can't leave your marriage for me.

I regret not forcing you to leave your marriage for me.

I regret that you have to take time away from your son in order to be with me and my son.

I regret not giving my son's middle name your first name, after all, he is your child.

I regret that your family will never know this special little boy that means the world to me.

I regret that he will never grow up knowing his father as well as his half brother will.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 4, 2009

I regret not saying even one word to you at our pathetic ten-year high school reunion. I had a couple opportunities, but I didn't say one thing.

You are as damaged as you ever were but I could have said something, not sure what....

You treated me like a piece of crap through high school: it was a true love/hate relationship, but I stuck by you and I wanted your love so desperately. Knowing now that you are bisexual (most likely gay) lessens the pain of that old rejection somewhat. Not to mention that I'm happily married and you are alone.

Since you are an alcoholic I don't expect you to make it to the 20 year reunion, so I bet that was my one and only chance to say anything to you for the rest of eternity. I couldn't even say "hello" because I thought you would hurt me again....

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 3, 2009

I regret making fun of you in sixth grade Maggie. I regret that I stayed up with a friend and thought of fat jokes that we could say to you the next day. I can't believe what a horrible little kid I was. I still think about it 14 years later. I wish for the day when I can tell you how sorry I am. What's more, I wish that if that day were to come you would tell me to get over myself because it didn't affect you at all.

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 2, 2009

i went through life for 25 years never knowing who you were, except for a little piece of random memory. i regret wanting to find about you, because when we met,it gave you a second chance to leave me.

i regret ever being curious about you, dad. i regret meeting you.im so embarassed still.

f/27

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 1, 2009

I was there when the doctor told you about the cancer. I held your hand as you cried and screamed "I don't want to die".

We shared more after that than ever. I loved the time we spent. I'll never regret that...

But I do regret running when it got bad. You didn't know me. And it hurt.

I regret practically living with my girlfriend whom you didn't approve of. Were apart now.

I regret the day hospice came the most. Because I left the house and didn't come back that night...

And you didn't live to see me the next day.

I regret abandoning you in your final days.

I miss you and love you Mom.

24 M

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